Is there no more future in Lebanon?

I’ve been working for the past 3 years (i’m a video editor for a News Channel), I live with my family and help them with the bills.

I’ve been able to save about 200$ a month (I only get paid 550$). Out of everything I saved, the only big purchases I’ve got where a phone (2 years ago), a laptop (a year ago), and a ps5 (last week), I still want to get a TV and cabinet/table. I drive my dad’s car to work (desperately need a new car), so saving up for that too.

I turned 27 last month and I feel like i’ve accomplished absolutely nothing for the past 3 years (the only positive is learning video editing). It’s just like time is flying by and I’m still frozen in my place, my dreams and hopes keep on fading away.

I tried freelancing, got paid once and the dude still didn’t pay the 400$ he owes me after 7 months of waiting (I’m just too nice and shy for this world). Tried looking for a second job and didn’t go with it cause I was gonna get absolutely drained and still wouldn’t earn 1000$ ☠️

I’m just tired man, life is passing by and I feel like I just exist for the sole reason of existing, although I really love life. And now with my hometown being turned into ashes, I feel like I hate this country even more 😪

Sorry for the long ass paragraph, just don’t really have anyone that I can rant and cry around.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful year ❤️